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Creating A Powerful Presence
Creating A Powerful Presence
By Fifi Munro
I am called Lenny and this is my story.
When my healing process started I was 11 years old. I had been on all sorts of powders and supplements to try and help me with my stress and trauma. You see, I had been beaten severely by people, and run into the ground. I had such abuse and emotional trauma from previous carers that I hated being anywhere near a human. I had been placed in a small space and beaten brutally. I guess some of you can understand how terrifying it is when people are abusive towards you, whether it's emotional, mental or physical it's all the same and hurts as deeply and it's not something that you can ignore, as the memory is in
your body as well as your mind.
My new carer found someone to work with me - an energetic healer. I started having distance healing treatments with her once a week to work through my trauma and emotional issues. At this point I hated being around any human, I felt like I was walking on glass and very jumpy and snappy at anyone being near me. I wouldn't answer when someone called me and actually went further away. It was heart breaking for my new carer - she knew this wasn't who I was and wanted me to be healthy and happy in myself.
After my first treatment I felt calmer and safer with allowing someone to touch me. It was a very gentle process and lifted the trauma from my body and removed it from my consciousness. After a few treatments, my carer was told to do an exercise with me: she stood outside away from me and was very quiet and still, almost like in a standing meditation. This was new, I didn't feel anyone bullying me or making demands and felt it was OK to go and see her. So I slowly walked over to her and began nuzzling her neck. She was so gentle and allowed me to do what I felt. This was a new experience for me with a human and it felt great. My carer was so moved by this experience she was in tears as she knew how difficult it was for me to trust anyone. Since then we do this often as we have created a trust between us both.
During my treatments I could tell the healer what I had been experiencing and what I wanted my carer to know. This helped enormously as it was sometimes unclear as to what I was trying to express. Physically I was also healing - uncoordination issues as well as coughing when exercising. All that is gone now. I also had dependency issues on a few of my own kind, which was really me being scared of life and not OK within myself.
My carer sometimes wanted me to have treatments, when the energetic healer had said I was integrated in my system and good. So I was very firm with the healer and said "I'm not the one who needs the healing, she does" (my carer) and made the healer promise to tell my carer what I felt. The message was passed on, much to the surprise of my carer, yet after sitting with it a few minutes she agreed. They were her issues not mine. There's something called transference that humans do and some of us are very good at mirroring exactly what someone is feeling, yet people don't seem to get this at times - they must be very disconnected from their own feelings I guess. My carer then started on her own healing journey which we have shared together as I am her mirror when she's not feeling herself or caught up in unconscious behaviour.
I started to feel a need to express a deeper part of my being, so worked with my healer and we figured out what it was I could do. So my healer told my carer of my wishes who was very positive and supportive of this process, and not long after a new experience started for me.
I wanted to do painting, and not having arms it was not easy for me. My carer came out and set up a homemade easel on the fence and I pulled it down as it didn't feel right. My carer then put some paint for me on the paper and I bent down and moved the paint around with my nose, then stomped on it and put my print on it. I found this very satisfying and it was my signature to stomp on it when I was done.
Everyone loved my art work and I gave one painting to my teacher and one to another friend. Everyone was so impressed and overjoyed at my work. I felt pretty clever and had such fun doing them.
I love my energetic healing treatments as I am feeling so much stronger and clearer in myself. My fear and past experiences no longer have an impact on how I experience life. I find myself being confident around people and actually enjoying their company. It feels so joyful to know it's safe to be around them and they love my company as well. I have helped my carers do fencing, and had fun pulling hats off them and being playful. I have found that they understand me more and listen to what I'm saying to them. I now have very solid boundaries so I don't feel other people's thoughts or feelings invading my space and I can tell them when they're not feeling right and they listen. I don't freak out when someone else is scared and can feel very brave and solid being me. I am now a healing presence for those around me, and able to have a powerful effect on those whom I was terrified of.
The new Lenny has been able to grow and learn new ways of sharing experiences in life with people and learning a lot of new movements and fun things to do with my human friends. I have been so full of joy of life and the new experience of being safe and loved that sometimes people ask "What has happened to him? He's so different!" I now have a sparkle in my eye for life and the joys I experience.
Life is truly a gift when you create your own life and, instead of living through your past experiences of pain and suffering, make the effort to heal yourself - you are worth it, as we all are.
Thank you for reading my story. I hope it can uplift many people's lives and horses.
Oh by the way I am a horse,15 ¾ hh riding pony x thoroughbred. Don't let appearances limit your experience of any being.
Lenny
With the assistance of Fifi Munro, his Energetic Healer
©Fifi Munro 2009
About Fifi: Fifi is an energetic and intuitive healer who works with both humans and animals. She works via distance healing and in person at her practice room in Leura NSW, and also in Melbourne VIC. www.serenitylodge.com.au
After my first treatment I felt calmer and safer with allowing someone to touch me. It was a very gentle process and lifted the trauma from my body and removed it from my consciousness. After a few treatments, my carer was told to do an exercise with me: she stood outside away from me and was very quiet and still, almost like in a standing meditation. This was new, I didn't feel anyone bullying me or making demands and felt it was OK to go and see her. So I slowly walked over to her and began nuzzling her neck. She was so gentle and allowed me to do what I felt. This was a new experience for me with a human and it felt great. My carer was so moved by this experience she was in tears as she knew how difficult it was for me to trust anyone. Since then we do this often as we have created a trust between us both.
During my treatments I could tell the healer what I had been experiencing and what I wanted my carer to know. This helped enormously as it was sometimes unclear as to what I was trying to express. Physically I was also healing - uncoordination issues as well as coughing when exercising. All that is gone now. I also had dependency issues on a few of my own kind, which was really me being scared of life and not OK within myself.
My carer sometimes wanted me to have treatments, when the energetic healer had said I was integrated in my system and good. So I was very firm with the healer and said "I'm not the one who needs the healing, she does" (my carer) and made the healer promise to tell my carer what I felt. The message was passed on, much to the surprise of my carer, yet after sitting with it a few minutes she agreed. They were her issues not mine. There's something called transference that humans do and some of us are very good at mirroring exactly what someone is feeling, yet people don't seem to get this at times - they must be very disconnected from their own feelings I guess. My carer then started on her own healing journey which we have shared together as I am her mirror when she's not feeling herself or caught up in unconscious behaviour.
I started to feel a need to express a deeper part of my being, so worked with my healer and we figured out what it was I could do. So my healer told my carer of my wishes who was very positive and supportive of this process, and not long after a new experience started for me.
I wanted to do painting, and not having arms it was not easy for me. My carer came out and set up a homemade easel on the fence and I pulled it down as it didn't feel right. My carer then put some paint for me on the paper and I bent down and moved the paint around with my nose, then stomped on it and put my print on it. I found this very satisfying and it was my signature to stomp on it when I was done.
Everyone loved my art work and I gave one painting to my teacher and one to another friend. Everyone was so impressed and overjoyed at my work. I felt pretty clever and had such fun doing them.
I love my energetic healing treatments as I am feeling so much stronger and clearer in myself. My fear and past experiences no longer have an impact on how I experience life. I find myself being confident around people and actually enjoying their company. It feels so joyful to know it's safe to be around them and they love my company as well. I have helped my carers do fencing, and had fun pulling hats off them and being playful. I have found that they understand me more and listen to what I'm saying to them. I now have very solid boundaries so I don't feel other people's thoughts or feelings invading my space and I can tell them when they're not feeling right and they listen. I don't freak out when someone else is scared and can feel very brave and solid being me. I am now a healing presence for those around me, and able to have a powerful effect on those whom I was terrified of.
The new Lenny has been able to grow and learn new ways of sharing experiences in life with people and learning a lot of new movements and fun things to do with my human friends. I have been so full of joy of life and the new experience of being safe and loved that sometimes people ask "What has happened to him? He's so different!" I now have a sparkle in my eye for life and the joys I experience.
Life is truly a gift when you create your own life and, instead of living through your past experiences of pain and suffering, make the effort to heal yourself - you are worth it, as we all are.
Thank you for reading my story. I hope it can uplift many people's lives and horses.
Oh by the way I am a horse,15 ¾ hh riding pony x thoroughbred. Don't let appearances limit your experience of any being.
Lenny
With the assistance of Fifi Munro, his Energetic Healer
©Fifi Munro 2009
About Fifi: Fifi is an energetic and intuitive healer who works with both humans and animals. She works via distance healing and in person at her practice room in Leura NSW, and also in Melbourne VIC. www.serenitylodge.com.au
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